Thank you for reading and reviewing His Cimmerian View.  There have been a few questions regarding Edward and why he is so tainted by women.  More of his back story is coming out, but between having a mother who was mentally ill, who subsequently abandoned him.  The one girl he gave his heart to was only using him for money.  One girl pretends to be his friend to gain access to his friend and for all accounts adoptive brother.  And don’t forget the person he looked to as a mother figure who lied to him and hid the truth of things from him.  When you put all of those things together, it is hard to trust and believe that there is honesty and truth in caring from a female.  I know lots of women who think men are worms because of this or that, which happened, so it should not be so hard to understand how Edward may have this view of women.  Next we have had an overabundance of questions regarding when Edward will find out Bella’s true age.  That will happen, but first we need to build a little more of their friendship together.   I know that many of you are not happy of his time going to Aro’s, but I assure that those times are coming to a close.  It is important we felt in the story and as the story goes to show how he is dealing with his own reactions to Bella.  There will not be any more explicit scenes from the club, however your knowledge of him going will not stop until he stops… AND WE PROMISE he stops going.  This is a rather slow burn, but for this to be realistic, in any way, shape, or form it needs to be.  With that said we will not drag it out either.  You will continue to learn more about Edward and Bella, as well as a few of the other characters, but it is all going with the storyline.  There are some great chapters coming up, and for all of you who still have some hate or anger for Edward, I am sure that you soon will find that hate or anger directed in another place. 

Kasi (& Nikky)

Chapter 10 Teaser…  Subject to changes during Beta Process.

Carlisle, Jasper, Emmett, and I, all meet up on Saturday for a workout and lunch. The topic moved to Bella, and Emmett was not happy that he was the only one that had not met her yet.  I, well we, explained that she did not like close contact with people and might say things out of the norm.  Of course, this all fell on deaf ears, because his only response was him promising to be on his best behavior. Now, we all love Emmett - most people do - but he is a large hulk of a man.  Emmett is six foot six and must be tipping the scales at close to three hundred pounds.  His biceps are the size of my thighs. He also has a quick mouth, and often says things without thinking. We tried to tell him this, but he didn’t get it.  We all knew that he would end up trying to hug her, or that she would end up saying something and then he would joke about it, but either way, she would end up hurt.  I just couldn’t allow that to happen, not even by one of my best friends.  He pouted the rest of the time we were together, even after Jasper and Carlisle both said she could not meet him yet.  I was a bit worried at the end of lunch when Emmett looked as if he was hatching an evil plan.

I look at my watch, seeing that it’s almost nine-thirty, and I know that Bella is about to walk in.  I have set up the table with some of the supplies I need to help teach her, including alphabet cards.  Since she can already recognize some letters, I know teaching her the alphabet should be pretty simple.  I know the best thing for me to do, is to start at the beginning.  This means that the alphabet song we all loved as a kid, is first. I look to the door as it opens, and see Bella walking in.  She glances at me, and I can see in her eyes that she looks both excited and apprehensive.  I am sure she is a bit nervous about today, so I smile at her. We already decided that we would do an hour and a half on Tuesday mornings, and an hour and a half on Thursday afternoons.

“Bella, hang up your jacket and come over to the table.”  She nods her head and does what I ask. “We will begin with the alphabet.  There are twenty-six letters in the English alphabet; twenty-one are consonants, and five are vowels. I will show both the capital and lower case letters.  Are you ready?” She nods her head before putting her glasses on. She has them sitting at the edge of her nose, which will make her look over the top of them rather than through them. I push them back to sit on her nose correctly. “No looking over them, Bella,” I say, giving her a smile.  

Thank you for reading and reviewing our story.  Nikky and I are very proud of this story and it takes a lot to write things sometimes that even upset us.  We really needed to show just how darkly tainted Edward is, and unfortunately right now many of you hate him.  I know it will take a lot for you to relinquish those hatred feelings, but we hope that we are great enough writers and story tellers to achieve making you like him again.  We know it is always easier to burn a bridge than it is to rebuild it, but we promise to put forth the effort in doing so.  We want to thank you in advance for your votes, support, rec’s, and for just being on this twisted journey with us.  This story will be somewhere around 30 chapters when all is done and said.  We hope that you continue to read and review and share with us your thoughts.  From the bottom of our hearts, and to the moon and beyond... Thank you.

Kasi (& Nikky)

Chapter 6 Teaser… All Subject to change during the beta process…
The shitting feeling is still there, and I have no idea what the fuck I can do to get rid of it.  I head over to Jasper’s office hoping to see him.

“Jasper says that you can go in now.” I look at the woman speaking, and I give her a curt nod as I head into his office. “Edward,” I look at him and he stops talking, and tilts his head to the side.  “Okay, what is going on, what happened?” He asks as he waves at me to sit.  I sit down on the seat across from him and rub my face.  I sigh unsure where to start, so I jump up and start to pace the floor.

“I screwed up, and I mean I really screwed up this time.  Jazz, I fucking hurt her, and I mean really fucking hurt her.  I don’t know how to fix it.  How I can get her to forgive me for what I have done?  I mean, fuck I’ll be lucky if she even speaks to me again.  Well really I know she will because she, fuck, I don’t want to say she is weak, but if I talk to her she will reply. How do I make right Jazz, without putting myself out there?  I don’t want to get hurt again, I could with her and I can’t go through that again.  Fuck, but I don’t think she do that, to anyone really.  She’s not made that way, but I have really gone and hurt her bad.  I never gave her a chance, I was still. . . no, I am to fucking scared.  In this case I think I made a new friend, but the dream. . . and I thought she stabbed me in the back like all the others.  I see her face in my dreams, the last two nights have been worse than all the rest.  I can see how much I hurt her, and the bad thing is she did nothing to warrant my anger.  All she did was fucking help me, time after time.  So many times, and she has been so hurt before and I know it’s been bad.  I can see it clearly in her eyes, the pain and the fear.  What if I push it what if she can never let anyone in ever again because what I did.”  I am still pacing and pulling my hair, I am so upset.  “Fuck Jazz I was a real fucking prick, and complete asshole to her.  Tell me what I can do?  Please I need to fix this, tell me how I can fix it please?”  I beg him as I feel my breathing speed up.  Jasper who was still sitting in his chair looks at me and suddenly comes out of his trance, as I feel the cold sweats start.  “Please Jazz you need to tell me how to fix this.”

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