Poor Bella..

That is a huge step to just put it up for chance 

Interesting..lets see how it goes

Bella's relief will be great for both of them. I'm looking forward to their dinner plans.

Well yay thank you for the update it was nice 

Thanks!

aw got love him

I would have thought they'd have talked before going into the playroom.  As long as Bella isn't feeling rushed or just going ahead with things to please her Master.

Jane x

Are the scars that bad or is Bella imagining them to be worse than they are?  I think we all blow things out of proportion when it involves our own bodies and Bella may see her scars as more ugly than they actually are and also because of they way she got them.

Jane x

Lol, is Jasper pregnant; craving maple bars?

I really thought Bella didn't know that she might not be able to have children. When she was in hospital it sounded like Charlie took over and brushed everything under the carpet.  

So Bella has external scars.  I should imagine some are hard to see like the anal tear.  I'm wondering what else happened to Bella or should I say what those sickos used on Bella besides their hands and dicks to cause her further damage?

Jane x

Well, it just goes from bad to worse for the pair of them doesn't it.  I wonder how Bella will react to that news, it doesn't sound as if she knows already.  It's going to be difficult news to break but at least they don't have to cross that bridge yet, she needs to get well first.

Jane x

It sounds like Bella has hit rock bottom.  I'm so glad that she is surrounded by people who love her and will help her pick up the pieces and rebuild herself and her life.  I have no doubt that she will be a stronger person once she's better.  I can't believe Renee said that to Edward, but then they did disown her so I should't be so surprised.  I think you just expect the maternal side to always take over no matter what's happened in the past.  I really hope Edward can control himself, like he said he needs to stay out of jail.  What does he hope to achieve by going to Forks?  He said fiancee!!

Jane x

Poor Bella, she'd feel much more secure knowing that Edward knew the worst things about her and still loves her.  Will Jasper think it a good idea that Edward be there?  If it was me having to tell what happened to me then I'd want him there, with Jasper as a security net and not worrying about having to tell him at a later time.

Jane x

Hmmm, what is the worst that could happen indeed.  Their relationship is very confusing at the moment.  Edward wants it all and so does Bella and I know Edward is taking things slow to build Bella's trust especially after everything that's happened but it feels, to me, as though everything is just up in the air and whichever bit of their relationship hits the ground first is what they will do, throw that back into the air and then move on to the next bit, am I making sense?  I think they need more structure and Edward needs to get that in place and set some boundaries.

I think if Bella put's the harness on, Edward's going to be really turned on. He's a man and that harness is hot, even as a woman I think that harness is hot, lol.  Will he think she's ready for a scene?  I hope he'll say no, but then that would hurt Bella's feelings because regardless of the impact on her emotional health she wants to please her Master.  This is why Edward should have already set boundaries and made it clear what he expects from Bella, what she should expect from him and why.  If nothing had have happened to Bella, Edward would have already have gone through his rules, they still should have talked about this and Edward has neglected to do so.

Jane x

Bella will definitely lose it and it's the worst way for her to start her new life.  I can't help but think that after this she'll wish she just told Edward herself.  I know she'll have the help of everyone around her but sometimes you just don't want everyone to know what happened to you.  I know that I would find that as difficult to deal with as the actual rape itself.

Lol, I can't believe the two of them and their shenanigans in Alice's shop, lol, it's a wonder she's not blind.  Bella's face will probably be as red as her new dress, hahaha!

Jane x

Edward was right he should have thought first before taking Bella to bed.  It seems as though he's blinded by Bella and his judgement is clouded, he's doing things he wouldn't normally do.  I hope this doesn't set Bella back and stop her from becoming the submissive she wants to be.

Shouldn't Edward have had a report on Bella already?  I mean two million dollars is a lot of money to part with without any sort of report on that person and her background in your hand.  She's had to have both a physical exam and a psych evaluation done.  Which makes me ask the question why it wasn't picked up at the psych evaluation the Bella's been raped? Now I'm not a psychiatrist but I would imagine if they couldn't say that Bella had been raped they would be able to say that she been deeply emotionally traumatised.

Jane x

Lol, I think I'd have passed out when I saw his face, regardless of whether I was breathing or not.  Bella's really struck gold with Edward as long as he's the good Master Aro says he is.

I take it that Mike was the one to spank Bella and that's how she found she liked it?  Well, more than liked it, lol.

Jane x

Oh my God!  Charlie is way out of line and should lose his job over this. Regardless of what type of lifestyle Bella wants to live those arseholes still raped and beat her up and he let them go.  It's obvious her parents have no clue about BDSM otherwise they'd know that it's not about that at all.  Renee should not have read Bella's diary, everyone knows that you never read anything good about yourself in those things just like listening at doorways.

What happened to Mike in all of this?  Surely he had something to say about his "girlfriend" being gang raped and beaten?  I know he's a minor part of this but I would have expected something from him, maybe he'll turn up later in the story for some reason.

I'm thinking that staying away from Aro Volturi could be a good idea, lol. I'm glad she didn't call him.  Will he be at the ball?  I think this ball might be a bit of an eye opener for Bella, I'm glad that she'll have Kate with her to guide and protect her.

Jane x

Well hello!!! 

Wtf Renee? She seems scared of Charlie. Wondering why she said that to Edward now?

The stress of even thinking about telling him has worn her out.

Loved the pictures. Just wished it was longer story. Love it. 

love the new two ch can't wait intil your next one

Yummy

What a weak ass woman! Your children's safety and happiness comes first. Renee should have done everything necessary to protect Bella. She should never have let Jacob get away with rape. She should have left Charlie and taken care of Bella. I hope she never finds peace. Bella will be haunted by the rape, but also her parent's actions for life.

Thanks for giving us some insight to Renee. I am glad that she is coming to her senses. But I just do not understand how a mother turns her back on her only child. What in the world was Charlie thinking. So, Renee has had some of the same fantasy that Bella wrote about in her journal. Now I really do not understand Renee. Thanks

This is an uexpected change in events. I wonder what will Renee find...

i hope it won't be to late

i am curious why renee is afraid of charlie and not standing up to charlie for her daughter

can't wait for more

Awww so we have one good guy 

Wow!  She is really stupid!  She has no idea what she did, and is just now trying to find out what's going on??  What is Charlie up to on the reservation...was her threatened too?  Can't wait for more...thanks.

:)

It seems the reassurance is working :)

Thanks! Are they ready to take their relationship to the next level?

Thanks!

Shopping a cure for everything. X

This chapter was so sweet. I LOVED it!!!!!!!!

at least he told him he will always love her some men say one thing and do something else  your doing great job keep up the good work

I am so glad that Bella told him and that she wanted him to know. 

well it is good she is speaking up and sharing. it will help her get better

She is so 'in to her submission' so easily...it hurts my heart at how hurt she was by her family...I hope bad things come to them!  Thanks for the update.

poor edward might have to adopt

she is good she is building the trust between them

Please le them defy the drs. Master needs babies!!! loving this story!!

:)

Right on time! Saved by the bell? Or a bit of both... How long will it take Bella to tell Edward? Or hiim to notice  on his own?

so much to deal with at once

baby steps. deal with one issue at a time

:)

Love this Edward

She needs time but not too much though. But it's good to see her laughing.

Wow, keep it coming - Loving this!  XOXO, Cheri